Hi, my name is Crystal Kormos, and I am honored you are here!
"Many of us are wounded children walking around in adult bodies." Unknown
Due to the absence of good role models during childhood, some of us become confused. We don't know where we fit in or how we fit into society, let alone live a successful life. We continue to allow our worth to be determined by what others think of us and who we think we should be. As we matured (in the body), we became conditioned to failure, and because of that, we may have found ourselves on a path of self-sabotage.
I know, I have been there, done that, and got the t-shirt! I grew up in a dysfunctional household where I was the only child in my mother's second marriage. My father was an alcoholic, and my mother suffered from depression and codependency.
I cultivated a love for self-development in my early twenties when a friend introduced me to Alanon (a twelve-step program for people living with or dealing with an alcoholic). I wasn't living at home anymore because I moved in with my then-boyfriend, but I was severely wounded by the effects of growing up in a dysfunctional environment.
I had big dreams for my future; however, they were never realized because of my inability to manage the self-sabotaging forces in my life, like low self-worth, people-pleasing, and a victim mentality not to mention a dysregulated brain. It took years of self-reflection, counseling, and 12 step meetings, along with sheer grit and determination, to divert me from the path of self-destruction I was on. I never intentionally decided to go down that path; I was programmed to. I lived life from a fear and scarcity-based perspective, which caused me to have negative expectations and outcomes. You know the one where you are always waiting for the proverbial 'other shoe to drop.' Because of my limiting beliefs and past experiences, I was destined to fail.
In my late twenties, I was diagnosed with depression after a suicide attempt. I was confused and in a pit of despair. I wasn't able to accept responsibility for the situations that I got myself into, and I made excuses and pointed the finger at everything and everyone in an attempt to feel better about myself. However, pointing fingers at others and blaming my circumstances on 'bad luck' just intensified my negative emotions. I tried to distract myself with drugs, food, alcohol, sex, and work to gain some semblance of control over my life. It was when I was admitted to the hospital that I finally decided that things had to change. I couldn't keep traveling down the path of destruction I was on. I got serious about my recovery from childhood trauma and became consciously aware of my behavior's consequences. I wish I could tell you that everything that transpired after that deciding moment was a 'cakewalk,' but it wasn't.
Gradually, I began to make new empowering decisions that freed me from the self-destructive patterns. It has taken many years to release life-long habits and limiting beliefs. My life isn't perfect, but I thank God I'm not where I use to be. I am on a new path now – the path of transformation - a path of progress, not perfection. Every so often, I shed another layer of the effects of the adverse childhood experiences. I live life on my terms and work on my passion for being an entrepreneur. I have broken the chain of my family's dysfunction.
If you are ready to take life into your own hands and begin the process of transformation, to walk an uncertain path, to stop searching for that thing that will fix all things, then you are in the right place. The transformation process takes resilience, determination, and a belief in what is possible, but you are not alone on this journey. I will be by your side, and so will others.
Your experience of this one precious life matters – it is time to start enjoying it!
To inspire women entrepreneurs to discover their amazing potential, teaching them how to heal and transform while creating the life they were meant to live.
Healing the world of complex trauma, one amazing, vibrant, entrepreneurial woman at a time.